Showing posts with label Holly Kruse. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Holly Kruse. Show all posts

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Fav Picture Ever


This is a little vain. Full story is what really makes it, at least as a great personal story. I was, and still kinda am, obsessed with The Great Gatsby, and was messing around with friends in high school putting on wigs and playing camera time. I jumped into the car and was crying out, "Oh no, Myrtle! I didn't see her." And then I guess I found the bb gun and this was taken. Still looks like and feels like a good time to me.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Garage Sale Tomorrow




Haven't even got to the garage sale part but it is already draining me. I know I need to do it but I hate it and dealing with people being cheap because it's the one social situation where you can take cheapness to its highest level. But still, I kind of like garage sales, a lot. Especially when I am on the other side, spending the money and then leaving. All the discarded stuff that are usually items held on to for a long time and then it suddenly dawns on the person that it isn't needed for whatever reason. Like nostalgic items. Or items that for one promised a thinner and more handsome physic no more. Or former projects never quite gotten to. All kicked to the curbside.

I found this top piece of paper in high school and that's all I remember about it. Besides that I really liked it and still do. But it wouldn't be as cool if I knew the exact reason why it was drawn, though a general idea is easy enough to assume. These other two, well, I don't know what to say about them. Don't remember making them and can't remember what I am babbling about in them. But I like them too.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Documentation


I am getting more and more happy to open up my iphoto each scanning session. It is always fun to reexamine these pages just as it is with anyone's personal diary or journals. For me, they look great put together to be surveyed all at once.

Eyes



Have you ever watched footage of eyeball surgery? You know, just the regular old better eye sight stuff? Complete horror show stuff. In high school in physiology we were warned that watching child birth makes some a little squeamish but did not receive the same courtesy for eyeball retina flipping action. And that is what I find really disturbing. Who are we without our eyesight? How traumatic is it to lose? Admit it, when you meet a person who is blind it causes some level of discomfort that is above deafness or other disabilities. You get something in your eye and you curse ever taking the health of your sight for granted. I am a big fan of eyeballs, and they also terrify me. I respect them.

Saturday, June 6, 2009

Remember What Is Beautiful


 These are some random thoughts, as far as I can tell. I have no idea what was going on here. But I do really love how I used to always write this kind of poetry. Was I even conscience of the fact that I was doing that? Do I still do that and not realize it? Perhaps, because I write this here without being too self conscience of what it is exactly that I am doing. Just letting it flow. Just letting it all go.

Just A Little More Greece/ Roma




I would never be able to describe how beautiful the places in the top photos were, or how rad is was walking through alleys in Rome and coming upon a Nun taking in the scenery and old Brunellesci too. If I go any further trying to read this will be like trying to make works out of someone talking in tongues. 

The Queen Bee





The one with the red cellophane has a picture from a fashion magazine of Vanessa Beecroft under it that I really like. I don't know that much about her but I have seen images of her several times over that look just like this one- half naked and regal despite the fact that she is an older woman and not stick model thin. I love these images of her. She is proud. Good for her. Rock it! This is what sexy should be. I believe that she is a photographer and that her thing is to take images like these. Of real women with average bodies and question our beliefs of femininity and self image. But really its the self confident images of her that I really like.
The second image is just natural history museum stuff. I don't know. I like it. I feel like there is a connection there somehow between bees, femininity, and natural science. There is really, because I bought a book a few months back at the Culver City based Museum of Jurassic Technology that was all about bees and our historical mythology and superstition of bees that was largely involved with goddesses and bees being connected.
And thirdly red "Sexy" page. Yeah.

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

New York, New York





These pages that I made out of all the papers, receipts, pictures, and postcards that I brought home from New York are some of my favorite. I want more then anything to get back to this style I had making pages in my journals. It was frantic and messily textured yet edited and simple with great use of materials and composition. I built that style so fast and then lost it somewhere fast and didn't even realize it. I see it now looking back. I think I started to like what I was doing and then got impatient. I hope I can use paint and pictures and other relics of Chicago with the fresh eyes that I am taking there and make these kinda pages again. I think that the paint is the real key. I couldn't just flip to the next page. I had to really think the one page I was painting out because the color had to work and then I had to consider the time it would take to dry.

Monday, June 1, 2009

Hollywood



When I was old enough I was taking off to Los Angeles every chance I had to go clubbing and exploring this city that lay so close. I'm pretty confident that these pages were made during that time. It is funny to see how negative my writing is, even despite my teenage angst. I hated Los Angeles as soon as I got there. Everyone was too cool, I remember that. And I wanted so desperately to be cool. I hadn't realize that what I really wanted for my future was to be comfortable and happy. This is something that I believe now comes gradually with age and figuring out what I like and saying fuck it to what everyone else thinks while also learning to care positively for others and taking positive care back. You know, having good people around you and not listening to the negative defensive words most people throw around. That's what a lot of areas of Los Angeles still mean to me. I place where people are too cool for school because they haven't found what they want because they got distracted by vanity. But a little vanity is good and taking it out just every once in a while is the happy balance.

Wish You Were Here



More from Athens...
These pages used to mean so much to me. I don't know what happened but I am not that concerned with traveling anymore. Nor do my past travels hold the same magic and personal mythology that they use to. Now I am so much more aware that no matter where you live there is something worthwhile to be found there. Especially when you live in such a densely populated and diverse area. This makes me glad that I made these pages. That while I may feel differently about travel and life in general, I can still reflect on these old emotions and beliefs. 

In addition, it is amazing to me to realize that my long obsession with Greco-Roman mythology and history has always manifested itself in different things I have done. I know I have always thought and read about that stuff but its funny to see it illustrated. Those emotions have not changed. While I may not be too concerned about traveling back Greece and Italy, I still very much travel back to the history of those lands.

Thursday, May 28, 2009

High School Notes



In high school I created some of my favorite singular paper time capsules. They hold lyrics pointing to songs that I loved, images I liked, and other general teenage interests from the past. I'm really glad I held on to these kinda papers every time I see them.

A Few More A Day




A few Greece and Capri pictures. These, while not that exciting now, were really the moment where I realized I enjoyed making these collage journal pages and wanted to push them further to capture and capitalize on my emotions at these particular places.

They seem cheesy now but no, I know not to let that get to me and I know that they are very important not just for nostalgia but also growth in my documenting technique.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Book I Pages 3 & 4/How I feel about Athens



"Some Greek Writings" by Gregory Corso

IN A WAY
the Greeks today
don't like Acropolis
because
it hovers over them
as though mockingly
as though imprisoning them
in a you-can't-do-better-than-me 
abyss

No matter whicheverway
they look
that mark of history
is impossible to miss
WHEN PRESIDENT EISENHOWER
came to Athens
he got a helicopter
and flew it over the Acropolis
and looked down on it 
like only Zeus could

I told that to a sharp Englishman
who replied:
He's fortunate he did not fly over it
like Icarus

PHAESTOS IS A VILLAGE WITH 25 FAMILIES
and one taverna
There my friend and I sat
drinking with the tallest Greek in the world
And though he must have been close to sixty
his face and body seemed those of a strong young prince
We could not speak each other's language
but drink after drink we talked about everything

I learned by my little German
and my companion's little Greek
and the others their little French and English
"He shot twenty German officers"
"But he wouldn't shoot a soldier"
"He says they were young and good"
"Now that the war is over and no more officers
he's unhappy"
"He's unhappy because the village has forgotten 
his heroics"
He sighed a sigh which seemed to say:
Those were the good old days
Having drunk so much I had to go to the toilet
and so did my friend and almost all the others
There was no toilet

Thus out into the pitch dark we staggered
behind the taverna we went
where
beneath the starriest sky I ever saw
we all did wondrously pee

Book I Page 2

I was so proud of this report card because I had great grades and comments except in one class. It was very easy to say to my parents "hey, I just do not like that teacher" and because of my grades they were just like "okay, that 'D' makes sense."

Book I Page 1

This is the first page to my first attempt at being something like Dan Eldon way long ago. It is nearly hard to look at because I can read into what I wrote the emotions and ignorance of the age I was when I made this journal.